I… just so suddenly…This scene just came to my mind when I started thinking about how I’ve been feeling for so long…

And in my mind I just pictured everyone that really cares about me and just Christ picking me up and carrying me through the darkness b/c I know I can’t do it by myself and have forgotten everything that I’ve known that is to be rejoiced.

And I cannot stop crying.

Thank you everyone, who still cares for this wretched soul.

And thank you God, for never giving up on me despite everything I’ve done…

I really can’t thank you all enough…

I’ll still be on a hiatus from the Internet for a while longer though… It’s mainly a distraction to keep me from thinking the thoughts I usually have and I just need to stop using that as a crutch… My near rash decision has taken a toll on me and has been taking some time to get over…

But just so you all know that I’m okay for now and that I’ll be seeking help from now on…